SoCS: lid

Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “lid.” Use it in the literal sense, use it in the metaphorical sense, use it any way you’d like. Have fun!

Keep a lid on it! That’s what I’m telling myself getting ready for Thanksgiving dinner with the family. Its Canadian Thanksgiving this weekend and I’m sure a lot of people could use this advice. Keep a lid on it and smile!

Actually I am grateful to have a family to go to on Thanksgiving. I didn’t have children and I’m single so my sister’s family is my family. I’m kind of like a satellite orbiting around them. I’m driving in their blind spot behind them, watching their lives. I watched them grow up to become adults and now watching them raise their kids.

Here’s my problem and I’m going to say it because this is my safe spot. I should have one place where I can say what I feel. I hold a lifetime of secrets and lies. I know too much. I will never be able tell my story because other people will look bad.

But I’m getting old and been ‘doing my work’, healing the wounds of my past.

I keep thinking of something an old friend used to say, “You can’t get 5 pounds of shit in a 2 pound bag!”

So I’m going to keep a lid on it this weekend and SMILE!!!

6 thoughts on “SoCS: lid

  1. I think we all hold a lifetime of secrets and lies. My blog is my safe space too. Though I do use pseudonyms for some people in case they wonder in and see themselves. And if they don’t like what they see, that’s on them. Maybe you should write your story in this safe space?

  2. I think it was Ann Lamott wrote something like, “If people wanted you to write nice about them, they should have treated you better. But yeah, pseduonyms are good, along with changing obvious characteristics. Extended family is a gift. I have kids, but my parents and sisters have passed on and I miss them. I bet your sister’s family likes having you there.

  3. You could always reveal some of those secrets that weigh you down in “fiction”. No one needs to know which are real and which are not. Throw some extra ones in there and you could have people’s jaws dropping!

      • Scary thought sometimes! I have a memoir partially written and honestly I add to it often but don’t know how much is too much? I mean do you pick a time period and stick with it or do you start as far back as you can and go from there? I have read about how to write a memoir but maybe haven’t researched it quite enough.

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